I am totally amazed at just how hard I work at setting myself up for failure. Failure actaully in the “get healthly category of life”. I posted recently, in October, that I had joined Weight Watchers. Yeah, and woop T do. I did it again. And this time, it only took two visits to drop out. Usually it takes at least a month. But I set a new record for my self. Started out strong, lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks, and well, have not been back. Guess you could tell if you were following me, but right – no one follows me as of yet. But if they were they would know I had “skipped the class” and early in the beginning! I just have to ask myself – WHAT IS IT? And the next BIG question is WHAT IS IT GOING To TAKE? Is the answer a heart attack? I just know I must somehow succeed in this quest. Healthy is better. And one thing I know for sure 60 ain’t for a sissy.
5 Days with Here I go again!
I am making this new “healthy eating journey” about a new start. That’s what we are told at Weight Watchers, remember my recent post about my re.re.re.re join status? This is not a diet, but a new way of life….sounds good, just have to believe it. I am at a point in my life where I can put some time and effort into this change. I am thankful for that fact. Retiring has given me lots of time to think and plan, you noticed I said “think and plan”, didn’t include the word do. So today I “do”. 5 Days on this new path well the re-re-re-re new plan. I really can’t say how many times I have tried but I will never give up, been a long time since I felt good about the way I looked and a long time since I really felt healthy. Weigh in is Monday, well see. I took a picture of my breakfast this morning, 4 points, nice fried egg on a whole wheat sandwich thin and cherry tomatoes – yum yum.
Hope today is better cause yesterday I ate my 2 daily snacks before my lunch! The journey continues, stay tuned! Just noticed my picture looks like a pac man-eating some cherry tomatoe!
4 Years….WOW, retired for 4 years from my 34 year banking career…..what in the world have I been doing?
I am amazed at how quickly time flies, are you? As I turned 60 on September 19, I am realizing just how quickly it slips by. I sent some notes out on my birthday to the special people in my life. I shared a comment that I know why 60 is a milestone, it’s due to the fact you look at how far you have come and it hits you – you don’t have that far to go! 50 is a milestone as well, but only the realization that you are not as young-looking as you once were….it’s not a finality issue….you could live 50 more years, right? My grandmother did! But now 60 that’s a different realization, no way you’re going to see 60 more. So that’s the milestone at 60, like stated, you don’t have as far to go. So with that being said, you grasp the full understanding of the saying “live each day to the fullest”, and that is what I plan to do. Are you at this 60ish point, are you ready “to live your life to the fullest”, it’s a wonderful journey to be traveling, come join me.
It’s 3:45AM and I am again, not sleeping!
Here I go again.
October 12, 2015, OK, I decided “secretly” to re-re-re-re join weight watchers. Yes, that re re re re is for all the times I’ve joined. I probably missed a couple of re’s….after all I am 60. This weight thing is a bitch…I apoligize for using the B word but just no other way to describe it. One excuse is that I blame it on my genes. …I take after my Dad, this couldn’t have been more evident than it was on Thursday, October 10, just 2 day ago. I went shopping with my Mom, after watching her walk out of the dressing room at Chico’s and everything she tried on looked wonderful, and in a size 0, it hit me hard once again, I take after my Dad. Bless his soul and heart…My Dad lived a long time with heart disease, and some of his disability could have been helped if his life style had been different. My Dad was a hard worker, he got a lot of exercise from working, he hunted so he walked a lot…but his eating habits were just not good for his gene pool. He had major heart surgery at 52 and diagnosed with heart disease . Not sharing this to be sad, but sharing it mainly for me so I know I need to change my life style and eat healthier. I also got my Dad’s ears and that ain’t good either…oh well, however all is not bad, I did inherit his calm spirit and patient nature, thank you Daddy!
My journals are filled with “ok today is the day, and “ok I mean today is the day” and “ok, I am tired of being overweight, and “ok I am fat and I am doing something about it”. I could go on and on….If I look at my book-case, I’m reminded over and over….book after book is a weight related book, Dr. Phil, Suzanne Somers, Joan Lunden, South Beach diet volumes one and two, Sugar Buster Diet, French Women Don’t Get Fat diet, Body For Life, Fat Flush Diet, just to name a few. So why am I hear once again, because I do have the desire, I just have not had the staytooitness or I guess another word is WILLPOWER…..but for some reason today I feel optimistic, today I feel empowered, today I feel successful, so that’s the reason “here I go again”. I am going to give it my best, I am going to blog the heck out of this journey, hopefully writing it down for the world to see will help me to stay focused and accountable, ok, here I go again…….and I’m asking you – whom ever is reading this to watch and read as I blog this journey, pray for me, and encourage me to let this be the first day of a successful journey for me! And then, just maybe I can inspire someone else to take the “Here I Go Again, and it will be the last time they have to start because they will be on a new journey of loving life in a healthy body, just like me!”
Figuring it out?
2 years 6 month, time flies – am I having fun? For 34 years I was a banker, I received a great satisfaction from my career, was paid well and felt respected and felt I did make a difference in my employees lives and my customers lives. Now I’m on a different journey, it seems its taken me 2 years 6 months to figure out that career is finished. I’ve been searching 2 years 6 months for something – insurance career and getting my licenses, lawn care business, upholstery, thoughts of opening a shop, start a catering business and on and on and on………I have been so busy thinking and planning that I have not been listening and reflecting. Yes, 2 years 6 months to finally say – I give. Now don’t misunderstand when I say I give, one might think I mean I’m giving up but that’s so far from my meaning. I’m finally giving into relaxing, reflecting and listening. Be still, be calm, be joyful and peaceful, yes that’s what I am doing.
I have a shirt that has a saying “serenity – the best vacation you will every have”. I’ve been searching for something, today I will just be. I will be thankful, appreciative and quiet. I will not only relax my body, I will relax my mind. I will feel the breeze on my face, I will enjoy watching the palm trees sway and hear the seagulls talk. I will watch the boats pass and just hope the people traveling on them are as lucky as me. Most of all I will listen and look forward to what God and the universe has to share with me. I will not cloud my thoughts with money, things or figuring out whats best for everyone else, I will wait patiently and I will listen intently for direction and I will enjoy the journey.
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